I'm in so much trouble.

Hey Cloudies,
 
   The Sour Clowd is actually very sour...
 
I don't know if i'm going to college or not...

  Nobody will give me a loan. My mom was rejected from any loans at all. I had to beg on all fours to get my dad to agree to cosigning, but we tried Sallie Mae and that harlet didn't accept my daddy's credit.

I've been crying every single day since the trouble started. And what makes it worse is that i'm supposed be at college this time, 3 days from now on my birthday September the 7th.

  My body has been violently reacting to the stress. I have terrible acne, my stomach is having a hard time digesting food, i have these sharp bipolar headaches...I'm afraid that if i don't go to college, i'm going to develop a serious depression. I've never been so scared for my health before.

Some of ya'll are just like "it's just a year off. You'll be fine."

I wish i could say that too, but no, I won't be fine.
My mom just found out she had cancer. earlier this year, my dad had cancer, but that was taken care of.
She'll be okay tho, just like my dad. :)

But, now my mom has to get surgery that leaves her in the hospital for a long time and then she has a 6 month recovery time. Although I have faith that her condition is going to get better, Where does that leave me?
How am I gonna get to work?
I need a car, and a licence, and with the surgery costs, I can't get one.
There will be no money to feed me or tend to my needs barely at all.
I can no longer stand to put up with my sister because she's a 20 year old pathological liar & cleptomaniac (I'm not kidding. She even has had therapy.) My parents understand. So i would need an apartment or somewhere to live. Who is paying for that???

See my dilemma? And i only have 3 days to resolve it. Cloudies, i'm terrified of what my future has in store for me.

Reading this makes me realize what kind of conundrum i'm in. I trust that God has my back tho.

 Please Cloudies, can i have your prayers tonight?